nature

It’s funny, if you asked me my favourite colour I would probably say I don’t have a favourite and then choose green if you pushed me.
If you asked Emma what mummy’s favourite colour is she will undoubtedly tell you it’s purple. Just as she tells me!
But as I looked back through the photos I have taken in the last couple of weeks there does seem to be rather a lot of purple. As if I gravitate towards it without noticing, yet Emma had!

I too often forget that at the age of 4 she is much more observant and aware of what is going on around her than I tend to give her credit for. She also has a long term memory that defies belief and is starting to catch us out! (Like the Eeyore teddy that was an unfortunate victim of a sick bug when she was barely 2, it was never going to be clean in my eyes again so got chucked. This went by completely unnoticed until she asked for it recently, recalling the exact circumstance in which she last saw it two years ago.)

I find that I am spending more and more time battling with my expectations of Emma. I flip between ‘Am I expecting too much, 4 is still so little after all!’ and ‘She’s 4 of course she should be able to …..’! Parenting can definitely be a battle but I am starting to realise most of the battles take place between me and myself.

I am much the same with Matthew, on the one hand I am desperate for him to stay my baby because he will most likely be our last and I can’t bear the thought of him turning 1 next month (this deep seated denial is probably why I’ve still done nothing about a birthday party!!). On the other hand I can’t wait for him to start walking a little and be safe on his legs so I can safely put him down when my arms are aching and I’m trying round up Emma and her shoes/bags/cardi’s/coat/random items at nursery.

Perhaps lately I have spent too much time over thinking and not enough time doing. I really want to make the most of the next 5 months, making memories with my lovely little family as we are now before September arrives and we enter a whole new season of life. Between the weather and many little illnesses I feel we haven’t got off to the start I’d hoped but it was the 1st day of Spring yesterday so hopefully we can turn a corner and get out a bit more!

We have managed a couple of little walks recently and I’ve taken to demanding a cringeworthy family selfie each outing which I actually love. One of my biggest bug bears is that we have virtually no pictures of us as a whole family and if this is the only way to do it then so be it!

This post has turned into something of a brain emptying exercise, I hope my rambling just about makes sense. These are certainly our ordinary moments though!

Linking up with Mummy Daddy Me for #OrdinaryMoments.