Goodness, where is this year disappearing off to?!
A fortnight ago I shared our wonderful news and explained why hadn’t been around so much, but also declared I was getting back to normal and should be around a bit more….
Two weeks later that doesn’t ring quite true in some ways! I am feeling a lot better some days, able to come off the anti-sickness medication for days at a time even… then out of nowhere I am hit by a couple of days where I can hardly get out of bed or the bathroom… rinse and repeat. So I still haven’t quite been getting back to things I enjoy doing in the way I want to.
Baby Wade is still beautifully healthy though which is of course more important, and at our last scan even gave us a little wave!!!
I am praying that this roller coaster pregnancy will start to level out soon but it could be that this is how it is meant to be for the next 25 weeks or so. In the mean time I am going to make the best I can of my good days and focus on these last few months of just Emma and I at home together. With illness, pregnancy hormones and already being prone to cry quite easily, I’ve realised it is too easy for me to spend a good day feeling negative about the bad ones and essentially ruining my own day unnecessarily… not to mention setting the tone of mood for the rest of my little family. I am resolving to cut that out. I can and should pray over it then leave it with Him and focus on my blessings for the rest of my day.
I am also going to use the start of the new month, and that I am in fact in my 2nd trimester now, to reboot our day-to-day family routine. Whilst there have been weeks where I truly have needed to ‘take it easy’, ‘put my feet up’, ‘get plenty of rest’ and go into parenting survival mode. I am finding that there is only so much of that I am able to take… and I feel I have reached my limit. Compared to 4 weeks ago I really am hugely improved but I find that my daily activities are perhaps still reflecting my illness 4 weeks ago. Bad habits have crept in to our house, I’m not as creative or productive with Emma as I could be, my wonderful husband is still picking up too much of my slack when I could now be doing more most days, and I am finding myself taking it too easy at home.
The truth is on the days I have been able to make myself get on and get out I’ve felt better than when I haven’t. So below are a few phone photos from some high points of our October and here is to a better, more active and more positive November no matter what pregnancy throws my way!
(I know this one is blurry but I still love it and it is probably just as well!)